Yesterday, I posted a screencap on Tumblr of one of the tweets Chris Evans' mother made.
I can't even begin to name all the things that I love about this tweet. And how Lisa Evans is leading her son into the mess that is the internet full of fans who adore her son. She's probably seen all the things that get said about him on the internet, because she seems to be fully aware of just how popular her son is, and what people think of him. And really, I adore her for it.
(Seriously, I want to be friends with Lisa Evans. In fact, I want to make her an honorary shitass, because she is just that fantastic.)
Most of the reblogs I've gotten have been supportive. But occasionally, you get someone who just... doesn't get it.
The first thing you need to understand is that Chris Evans deals with anxiety. He debated becoming Captain America because of his anxiety. It took numerous offerings for him to finally accept the role of Captain America, because he was afraid. Because of that anxiety.
And it's hard to explain to someone who has never had to deal with it. I'm all too familiar with that, having dealt with my own depression and anxiety for years. It's something that goes on in your head, something that can't be explained because it may not be entirely rational, but it's real. It's so fucking real to that person, that it prevents them from doing things that others might have no problem with.
Only recently did I find out about Chris Evans' anxiety. And then, I started to read up on articles where he talked about it. And really, I just sat there, staring at my screen, amazed. Because at least, at the very least, he's talking about it. And then you look back at interviews, at press junkets that he wasn't present at... and it all starts to fall into place. The attention being placed on him, the focus on him... it scares the shit out of him. Why? Because he doesn't believe he deserves it. He gets so overwhelmed that it forces him to shut down.
In an article with The New York Times, there is a quote from Chris Evans that sums it all up perfectly: “The reason I kept saying no is because I was scared. Maybe this is exactly what I had to do. Maybe this is exactly what I had to face.”
So to see people saying that he's being "mothered" on Twitter, I am tempted to tell people to fuck off. To me, he is handling this celebrity status of his just fine. I imagine it took a lot to even get him to join Twitter in the first place, and honestly, I'm sort of amazed he's even here now. He tweets as if he doesn't have 80,000+ followers, because I imagine he can't even understand why so many people care.
That quote though. I want to tell Chris Evans that quote is just... it is just so accurate. That by him talking about his own anxiety and his own issues, he's helping others deal with things that they don't even realize they need help dealing with. I'm just staring at that quote and there is a part of my own life that it applies to so perfectly. That quote is making me realize what my own anxiety is keeping me from.
- On anxiety, Twitter and Chris Evans